Archive | January, 2011

Floundering

27 Jan

For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways;

Psalm 91:11

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heart-to-heart conversations

27 Jan
  • Love. For days that I’m down, there are people helping to pick me up.
  • Reassurance. For days that I doubt, I am reminded of what matters.
  • Girls. Because there are some things that boys will never understand.
  • Free parking. Meters that still have time on them. Credit card pay stations so that I don’t need to carry quarters.
  • Movie+beer nights. Sometimes, that’s all you need for a good night.
  • Staff-only hours at the SPH gym. And when all machines are occupied, there’s always still a free erg.
  • Being a person that people can turn to when they need a friend. I really like knowing if I’m making an impact on people’s lives.
  • Snow days. Sometimes life makes me anxious and I really appreciate a day to collect myself.
  • Thanks and appreciation. I can be really hard on myself and little things like these make a world of a difference.
  • Reconnecting with old friends. Networking and investing in lives.
  • Making it home safely in the snow in under two hours. Many people were stranded for 6+ hours on highways.
  • Social media. I love being able to interact and start conversations with my friends about the news.

conditional love

24 Jan
“Earlier this year, my friend was thinking of getting engaged and was talking to our pastor. And my friend was saying … I want to see “xyz” out of my girlfriend first before I propose. And the pastor asked him, “Isn’t that making your love conditional then?” ”

unexpected smiles and hugs

21 Jan
  • There is America’s Test Kitchen and then there is my kitchen with my various guinea pigs. Since my food is not nearly as perfected, I always appreciate people that eat my food. Especially when I good feedback.
  • Making my family dinner and having my dad actually really like what I make. Then him commenting the next day that we need to eat normal unfancy food to balance.
  • Timeliness. People who are on time and even early. I like when people care enough about other people to be courteous.
  • NYC low-key bars. Not enough can be said that equates to how much I appreciate NYC bars.
  • Long weekends to unwind. I can spend an entire day doing nothing and not feel guilty about wasting half of my weekend.
  • Mix tapes/cds. As Butch Walker once sang, “you gave me the best mix tape I have, even all the bad songs ain’t so bad.” A new mix cd yet to be listened to thoroughly is fresh in my car’s cd player.
  • My carpool. Carpools are underrated, you make some of the best friendships while traveling.
  • “The Storm.” The storm that beat all storms, the floods that beat all floods, but there was such a freeness to stand in the middle of the street and feel the rain wash over me. And the poop wash past me.
  • MCAgFair. I don’t for a second regret spending 12 years of my life dedicated to a tiny tent called home. When people think that you have to go to the boonies for a tractor pull or monster trucks, I know.
  • Knowing how to parallel park and doing it well. Being a female, asian driver in the national capitol region, I suck at driving. BUT as FF once said, she’d trust my parking even if I was drunk. I may be one of the few people who enjoy backing and paralleling into parking spots.
  • The music that the ERC plays. I can’t make headphones stay in my ears, plus they make my ears itchy. I try to find a machine next to the speaker and I really like when I swim well enough to hear the music underwater.
  • Belonging to a gym with a pool. Thank you swim, dive and water polo teams.
  • Snow delays. Sleeping in. Waking up to my dad making breakfast to share.
  • Leaving a relationship on good terms. Seeing as how most relationships don’t end well, most people don’t understand me right now. But if it happens to you, you know that even afterwards, you love, give and respect, and there’s little more that is as satisfying.
  • Perfect Love. Putting others first. Keeping no record of wrongs. Hope. Always seeking the best in all situations. Respect and being understanding.
  • “The best years of your life are always ahead of you.”

I hope I feel the same when I’m 80 y.o.

20 Jan

“I’ve got lots of energy but I am 80,” he said. “I love this place, but it’s gotten to the point where I only have 365 days in a year.” —Warren Buffet on leaving WaPo’s board of directors.

WaPo

the sound of the mailman’s truck driving up my street

14 Jan
  • foodie friends. people who appreciate nice food. people who push themselves to be a better cook/baker. people who spend the money to try something new.
  • the automatic comfort that fills me when i pour myself out in prayers and tears.
  • reassurance. being a girl is never an easy thing. even just a little hello can mean a lot.
  • no cavities at this dentist visit.
  • getting a hang of swimming and learning to find my rhythm after only four workouts. the large windows surrounding the natorium so i can watch other swimmers to learn how to properly swim.
  • pushing myself to do things that i know are possible no matter how far off the goal is.
  • sleeping. my bed. being able to fully enjoy sleeping in and getting a full night’s rest. being exhausted enough to sleep undisturbed.
  • winter session traffic and no route 1 construction. saves me 10-20 minutes of my commute.
  • trust. it’s hard to earn and easy to break.
  • daddy, who teaches and has always taught me to be financially responsible.
  • TTs, bc oftentimes by thursdays, the week is wearing on me and it is not fabulous day. then i realize what day it is and remember to keep my head up and push myself to TT so i can remember.
  • 7.5 months til my other half comes back to the states. it’s so close.

those moments while exercising that you feel absolute freedom

6 Jan
  • harry potter. it makes cycling time go faster
  • chairs with backs. tall chairs when i can swing my feet below. rolling chairs for rolling, ease, everyday fun. stools for feeling important
  • a fab cali vacay. the leave time to do it. the friends and fam that hosted me and showed me around. learning so much about my fam. discussing our parents similarities w my cousins. seeing people i love that i haven’t seen in a long, long time.
  • home. i love having a place to go to at the end of the day without feeling like somewhat of a burden on anyone else. being at ease with my surroundings and the people in it.
  • my immediate fam. for letting me go away for christmas. for never complaining that i travel too much. for our weird family traditions like opening a new box of chocolate on christmas and new years. for our silly NYE nights. for daddy drinking wine and me always being hungry.
  • rb. who despite not living in the same city as me since high school still always finds the time to check-in and make sure i’m okay. even when i sound like an idiot bc i’m worrying over every detail.
  • winter break. working for a school so that i have winter break. working for the state gov’t so that i have a great leave policy.
  • being young, not married and without kids. i don’t have to plan my life yet. i don’t have to calculate when i need to have kids by. i don’t have to come home and cook dinner, clean the house and do laundry for anyone else. but most of all for being able to travel whenever and wherever i want. i don’t have to worry about someone else’s work schedule to plan a trip.
  • virgin airlines. i flew virgin to SFO and it was fabulous. absolutely fabulous. i wish all airplanes were that nice.
  • nonstop flights. when going to far away places, they’re already far enough without the added stop.
  • finally learning how to swim. conquering my fears of drowning. putting aside my pride and being okay with looking like a floundering idiot in the pool.
  • personal training sessions. they really pushed me to try new things and stick with them. i could never have imagined that they’d turn out so well.
  • having the time to go to work, the gym, cook dinner, relax and sleep all in one day despite my two hour commute. being motivated enough to exercise on a regular basis.
  • friends that appreciate good food and don’t mind paying a lot for it. sometimes it’s okay to splurge and treat yourself really, really well.
  • diet pepsi. for some reason it doesn’t fix up in my mouth like coke zero does. caffeinated beverages when i desperately need it.
  • water. to wash away all the HFCS. to keep me healthy. to make my body work properly. to quench my thirst late at night when i overheat.
  • breakfast. possibly my favorite foods.